Uncategorized

Update 9/14/2014

Hello Everyone!

It’s been exactly a month since my last post, and although not as frequent as I would like, I’ve been posting much more than I used too. It’s a start, and I’m happy with it.

Things are really good lately. I FINALLY got my drivers license, and with already having a car, I feel much more free than I did before. It was a huge goal that I had this summer, and I’m so ecstatic that it manifested. My senior year of high school has also started, and so far it’s the best school has ever been. My schedule is fun, interesting, and I’m actually getting a lot out of it already. My only hard class isn’t even at my high school, its at a local community college that I’m dual enrolling at! It’s stressful, but manageable and who doesn’t love free college credits?

Things are definitely happening in the mundane aspect of my life! Aside from not being able to find a job, energy is flowing so rapidly lately and I love it.

Spiritually, things are also going pretty good. I’m finally making a ton of deity connection all at once, and deciding what things to leave and get rid of in my life as the harvest has arrived. I have a lot of self-improvement to be done, but I’m feeling much more spiritually confident lately!

I’m ever grateful for how good my life is going, and am excited to see how the rest of the school year plays out. This time next year I hope to be living in Grand Rapids, Michigan in a nice little apartment independently enjoying life. The way things are going lately, I especially see it happening. I hope for the best, and as my Spiritual and Mundane life keep intertwining and combining, I hope to see the continuation of good things!

Many Blessings to You!

Advertisements
Categories: Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Update: 6/16/2014

sunsetHello my dear readers.

Although I haven’t exactly accomplished too much since my last posts, I felt as it was my duty to update my blog like I promised myself I would. I feel like blogging can be an extremely reflective, meditative experience and I often find myself coming to conclusions or realizations whilst typing away.

Although I’ve had a sorta stagnant start to my summer vacation, there have been a few spiritual and/or positive events that have surfaced. First came with getting out of school. This year was so stressful, and I’m very proud of myself for remaining afloat and receiving good scores. I’m excited for next year, but I refuse to rush this summer as I need time to relax and refocus. School tends to suck a lot of spiritual mojo from my life, so three months of good vibes is much needed.

Second, I’m feeling my connection with the Celtic healing Goddess Brighid surface again. On and off I’ve felt her presence, but after a pretty spectacular meditative healing experience I definitely feel Her near. Ever since starting my path I’ve longed for a name, an image, any sort of direct personification of the Goddess to be my patron and finally seeing results made the journey worthwhile. I hope to work with Her more over the summer and find out for sure what role She plays in my life.

Third, I’ve received some really good news! Rachel is coming home for the summer! For a long time, I’ve felt surrounded by a few immature friends and its becoming quite tiring. I’ve missed Rachel dearly, because shes always been somebody I know I can rely on and for sure shes my closest friend. I can’t wait for the regular sharing of stories to occur.

In hope for a positive, enlightening rest of my vacation, I’ve formulated some goals that I hope to accomplish by the end.

One goal that comes before all else is to find out exactly what it is that I need from my path. I hope to find a restart and release all of the information or old practices that don’t serve me anymore. I need to find what rings true to me, and stop living so vicariously through others. A few other goals I have are getting my drivers license, going on a few adventures, and just kind of becoming free.

As always,

Many Blessings to You and to Yours.

Categories: Uncategorized | Tags: , , , , , | 1 Comment

Update 5/16/2014

Blessings!

I haven’t made my presence here known in quite awhile, but that’s fairly usual of me. 

If you’ve followed my blog for a while you know that I fall into the habit of not updating as much as I probably should. I find myself seeking comfort in social media where I can quickly type out short messages such as Twitter. I can’t make up any excuses. Its laziness but alas, I am here. 

Wow. This school year has been quite a mix up. As usual, the constant pressure of school and trying to maintain a social life has put a damper on my spiritual side. I find that during academic years, especially in the cold months of winter where I find it harder to venerate with Earth’s energy, I sort of lose myself spiritually. Not completely of course, the craft will always play an immense role of my life, but the lost track of high days and times where I utilize magick to live for myself get unintentionally put on a back burner.

Academically, this has been the hardest school year of my life. My classes have been ridiculously hard to keep up with, and with the integration of multiple state tests per year and the taking of the ACT college ranking test, its been a struggle. Thankfully, school gets let out fairly soon and I’ll have time to finally sort out whats been slowly pulling me away from my spiritual self for a while.

Summer is always a spiritual time for me, and with a bit of planning and luck, this summer should be the best one yet. I hope to visit Brenna now that I have a car, and hopefully see all of my spiritual friends as they always inspire me a bit more than people from school. This season will also be a time of figuring myself out. Next year is my last year of high school and after that I officially start my life as an adult and college student. In time, I have plans of cutting off quite a few negative influences before next school year and surrounding myself with old friends (Brenna, Morgan, Taylor, Shelby, ect.) and hopefully gaining a new crowd of positive people at school if possible.

I can’t promise much posting for a few more weeks. Exams will be here soon and all my attention will be focused on that. But once summer starts, I have plans of updating my blog as much as possible.

Until then,

Merry Meet, Merry Part,

And Merry Meet Again!

Image 

Categories: Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Update: 2/18/2014

Hello my dear followers. What an extended period of absence. I hope everyone is doing well.

I thought that I’d stop by and let you all know what’s been going on in my life currently. Instead of doing what I usually do in update posts, such as provide excuses as to why I haven’t been on in forever, I’ll just get straight into it.

So where did we leave off? Oh yeah, last thing I blogged about dealt with the old circle I was in and camping. 

So basically, after coming to the realization that our circle just wasn’t working, we decided to disband and remain friends. It was probably the most rewarding and mature decision we ever made as an entirety. We chose to still go camping with each other and work on personal spiritual goals. 

When we began planning for camping, we had high hopes of going to a campground about two hours away from where we all lived. We came to find out that we just wouldn’t be able to make it work that far away, so we made reservations at our local state park. Because our other friends had jobs and commitments, Rachel and I were the only two who stayed for the whole time. We completed some personal rituals and readings, but a lot of what we planned on doing got cut with the extreme bug problem the park was facing. Like, we can handle bugs, but what was going on with mosquitoes and mayflies was out of control. I’ve never seen so many bugs.

While we were there, I made a few herbal satchets, completed a Druidic based rite based around summer goals with Brenna, and completed a Patron ritual where I focused on Brighid. While I was there I realized that animals were delivering a lot of messages.

While I was walking on the beach, I noticed a deer. Usually when deer notice humans they dash off into the forest. Surprisingly enough, this deer let me get within about three feet of it. It was crazy, just examining the animal and feeling the Herne energy it radiated. It was amazing.

The second animal experience I had occurred when I was walking through the woods. I heard some squirming and saw a huge raccoon scurrying. It was extremely close to me as well. I felt more attuned to nature just from being exposed to it for about a week.

After camping, not much more was celebrated throughout the course of summer. I went to a large music festival, completed a Lughnasadh and Midsummer rite, and went on a two week camping trip. I focused on becoming closer with nature and deity as a whole.

School quickly started and I found myself facing Junior year. Within a short time, I realized just how stressful it would become. Craziness. So much work and preparation all the time.

The next big high point came around Yule. Amongst Christmas shopping I felt extremely compelled to buy this Ganesha amulet at a craft store. This was weird for me, considering I followed a mainly Celtic path and Ganesha is from the Hindu pantheon. But, I followed my intuition and bought the amulet.

Yule came and I did a very insightful tarot reading and focused on pure, positive energy. Upon doing some meditation where I focused on a Ganesha mantra, I got the feeling that I should bless my amulet. I cleansed and empowered it, and asked of Ganesha’s blessings.

Things got weirder when I did a reading and the Lynx from the wildwood deck appeared. After researching, I found that the Lynx is pretty prominent in India where Ganesha mythology first took hold. Also, the card was associated with a keeper of secrets and mysteries. Around this time, my cards also indicated that a sudden negativity was gonna enter my life.

As time rolled on, I came to find that the negativity had arrived. Problems with friends and family almost erupted so suddenly and for a period of time I felt very alone. I focused on Ganesha’s energy and tried to relate to the messages I was receiving.

Eventually the problems started to quickly decline as I cut a bunch of negative situations out of my life. Along with the problems, I also felt my connection with Ganesha start to fade. I didn’t question it until recently, since I know that things become revealed in due time.

I found out that Ganesha, The Remover of Obstacles, has long been associated with a Deity who appears when you need him the most. During times of extreme obstacles and chaos, he makes an appearance and helps give you the push you need. When times were hard, He popped in and gave me the kick I needed and my problems started to diminish. Although currently I’m not actively pursing an extreme connection with Him, I do still feel that I haven’t seen the last. I know that the next time I am faced with some chaos I have a deity who I can call on for help. 🙂

So where does that leave me? Well, a bit stressed. I have a major test coming up that basically determines where and when I’ll be able to attend a university. A majority of my fate lies with this test so you can say I’m a bit worried. Along with that, this winter has been absolutely horrid. We’ve gotten the most snow I’ve ever seen, and have had about 15 days off of school that we’ll have to make up. I miss the grass and the leaved trees and the flowers and the Earth. Nature is where I turn to when I need that boost, and it’s hard to connect with through about a foot of ice and snow. 😉

Hopefully spring will bring the refreshing energy I need to stay focused and attuned. The rest of the year will fall into place and I’ll have plenty of opportunities this summer to stay spiritually connected to the things that I love.

Until next time,

Merry Meet, Merry Part,

And Merry Meet Again!

 

Categories: Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Healing Flames/Goodbye Sophomore Year

It’s over. My tenth grade year is finally, over. 

Yesterday at ten thirty in the morning, a bell signaled everyone in my high school to leave. Following the bell, was probably the biggest sigh of relief that has ever escaped my lips.

This year was hell. To say that I haven’t learned sooo much this year would be a lie. I have learned a lot. But, as always when going through transitions from negative to positive, it was an extremely hard process. It was a year that demanded more physical, mental, emotional, and even spiritual effort than I was ready to give. Between arguments with former friends, trying to maintain decent grades, and spiritual confusion, the year was tiring.

But enough about that. It is over. And today, the first day of my summer vacation, I ventured to my bonfire pit to mark an official end.

As you probably know, students are handed out A LOT of papers throughout the year. If we’re not constantly ripping pages from a notebook, we’re handed out worksheets or printing out pages from the internet. We spend many stressful hours working on these assignments, many times not completing them out of confusion. I feel like papers from your school year start get charged with lots of negative energy. This year, being the hardest in my opinion, probably left the worst psychic imprint on them. As of today, I wanted them gone.

Now usually, I would recycle the papers. I’m an earth friendly, proudly Pagan kind of person. But this year was different. I needed closure. I needed a physical symbol of my tenth grade year being, done. I decided to burn them.

I walked out to my bonfire pit, papers, folders, lighter, and incense in hand. I took a couple papers from the stack to light and start the fire. As some of the wood caught, I started to pile more and more assignments on. 

About half way through, I called on my patron Goddess, Brighid. I figured, since she was the Goddess of Fire and Healing, that it would be perfect. And, it was. As I invoked Her, the fire instantly rose and fully caught. I dropped the rest of the papers into the flames, and watched all of the stress of Sophomore year turn to ash.

Near the end, I could feel a definite release of negative energy. I felt a freedom that I had been yearning to feel all year. It was amazing, and extremely magickal. I had brought with me an incense called Peace of Mind, which has an amazing calming, floral scent. I lit it with the bonfire, and stuck it into the ground. The aroma of the incense mixing with the paper and wood was just what I needed, and marked the metaphorical end.

After that, I started walking back into my house. I left all of that negative, stressful school energy with the flames. It was one of the most magickal feelings I have ever felt. 

Goodbye Tenth Grade! 😀Image

Categories: Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Update June 2nd, 2013

Wow, how time flies. It’s crazy, to think that I have had this blog for SOOO long, and I rarely post on it. I apologize for that. Sophmore year is coming to an end, and still, not many posts at all. I suppose I offer you an explanation, but, in doing that, I hope you’re prepared to listen to an extremely long and drawn out line of excuses. Some valid. Some not. I digress.

 

Let us take a journey back to Summer 2011. The summer was great, and probably the most spiritual one I have ever had. It was a period of preparing for the great transition of Middle School to High School. I was nervous, as I had the intent to drop most of the crazies(old friends) from my life, and start a new one for myself in freshman year.

 

First day of school arrived, and I found myself sitting again, with the crazies. Of course, the scholarly year was looking better than any other. My pagan friends, who were seniors, were there for me to find comfort in. I also started the year liking all of my teachers. My spirituality was still very strong, and the Gods were with me.

Fast forward to about November. Things were odd. I had managed to leave “the crazies”. So that was a plus. But, I soon realized that I didn’t have many friends to turn too. My drawback plan from the beginning was to hang out with my older pagan friends. When coming into highschool, I didn’t understand just how divided the school was by grades. I rarely saw them in school, and Rachel (one of my closest, most spiritual friends) no longer rode my bus. I felt alone, and connecting to my spirituality was harder than ever.

Come December, I started noticing a group of people that intrigued me. They were rebels, wearing dark clothes and band merchandise, covered in heavy make-up, skinny jeans, and hair teased high accented with crazy colors. The broke society’s rules, and I found myself wanting to join them. And soon enough, that’s exactly what I did. It started out pretty innocent enough. Just a chubby blonde boy coloring his hair and squeezing into tight clothes to fit in. It soon became much more than that. It was like a new culture that completely changed me. I soon became really depressed, and obsessed with genres of angry music. My spirituality seemed completely gone by then. I had lost the Craft.

Fast forward again, to the summer of 2012. I was just starting to come out of my Emo phase, and life seemed better. My spiritual thoughts still subsided, refusing to come out. I was stuck in a rut. But, I continued to help plan our group Midsummer rite. On paper, it seemed amazing. When the actual event came, I started to see how it was going to play out. About Half of the circle seemed preoccupied with being negative, and talking about how many parties they were going to encounter that summer. The other half of the circle, actually wanted to complete the spiritual goals we had made for ourselves. This caused a clash, and caused the ritual to fall apart. At that point, it wouldn’t be untrue to say that I was nearly done with the circle. I thought that my friends were leaving, and that I would rarely see them. The circle seemed to be over. Later, after they left, I found out that they weren’t going to be gone ALL of the time, and would be back for the major sabbats. I was scared, and was questioning my place in the circle, along with my own personal beliefs.

Let us fast forward, again, to Yule 2012. Yule was the one ritual that I had yet to celebrate with the circle. I had been told that it was the one sabbat where EVERYONE usually seemed pleased with the ritual, and it was always rewarding. I promised Rachel that I would give to circle another try, and celebrate Yule. The ritual WAS amazing (except for some space issues, but we were all really positive about it, so it wasn’t that big of an issue). I felt at peace, and it seemed like we were finally getting our shit together. We developed some major plans for the upcoming year, and changed a ton of negative things about our circle.

A few months later, and most recently, Beltaine. I spent most of my sophomore year still deciding what I wanted out of the Craft, and more often than not, forgetting it. Our group hadn’t celebrated together since Yule, so Beltaine promised to be fun. Except for the fact that, one of the group members decided to take writing the ritual into her own hands, and kind of refused to share it with anyone. So, up until a week before, nobody really knew what was going on. Finally, we found out. Beltaine came, and we set up for our ritual. And, in about twenty minutes, it was done. I’ve come to the conclusion that (except for Yule), our rituals had become a very rushed, non spiritual, no point, celebration. I wanted/want that to change. We discussed it, and it seemed to spark up a little of that negativity that we oh so wanted to leave in the past. 

Now, it is almost Summer break. The good thing is, as of late, I have been feeling extremely sure of my Craft. The circle members have been home for a while for their summer vacation, and I have been bonding (rather trying, with some) with them. Rachel and I have been working on a plan that we hope to put into place before Midsummer. We are setting out to Join the ADF Druid fellowship. I’m really excited, because all of the work seems really enlightening, and I think I will get a lot out of it. Coming up in about ten days, our circle is going CAMPING! 😀 We are centering the trip around group bonding, and discussing the negative feelings that sometimes arise when we work on things. Hopefully, the circle can become stronger, and serve as a tool to empower us on a personal level. I really hope so.

In other news, I have three more half days of exams, and I am out for the summer! I can’t believe that in three days I will have completed half of high school. I’m still uncertain about my future. Everything is still up in the air, and as the Wheel turns, many thoughts and struggles surface. I’m becoming better at dealing with these spiritual ruts I get myself in. I know that I am maturing, and (hopefully) I will continue to prosper. I’m excited for this summer. Of course, it’s going to be hard watching my dearest Rachel go off to England for a month! (LUCKY!!), and it’s going to be hard working through some of the shadows of my past. But I know I can do it.

Wish me luck, as I wish YOU all luck.

Love and Light,

Cayden Deaglan

Categories: Uncategorized | 4 Comments

Where am I Now?

It’s been a month and a half since my last post, and EVERYTHING is still up in the Air. Autumn has arrived, and has brought with it, an air of uncertainty. Everything is changing, morphing, taking a different form. Things that have been long hidden are bubbling to the surface of my life. I’m learning a lot. A lot about my path, the people around me, but most importantly, a lot about myself. SO many mixed vibes. It’s extremely hard to remain Ground and Centered, but, each day brings new enlightenment. I’m finally understanding, that nothing is permanent, everything changes, and, instead of fighting the forces of change, I should try my best to work with them. 🙂

NOW, on the note of my spirituality. When my Pagan friends left for college, I  was assuming that the physical being of the”Circle of Towering Trees” would be no more. The circle took on more of a metaphor for the things I was aiming to be, as it seemed that nearly half of the circle were not as persistent and focused as the other half. BUT, it seems as if the Circle is slowly making it’s way back, as my friend Rachel will actually be back home for a lot of Sabbats. This scares me. Let me explain.

At first, the circle was great. Everyone was focused and committed to making every ritual count. We had a ton of great rituals. But, things change, events in people’s lives’ cause a lot of pain. This can REALLY change a person. Which can change the outcome of the group coming together. Some of the members seemed to become more negative, not wanting to contribute, and our rituals seemed to fall apart. I wasn’t getting anything out of them. They were becoming more of us reading things that some of the circle didn’t understand, rather than the former amazing rituals. It became unsacred. It became Negative. And I started to regret considering myself part of the circle.

In MY head, I saw the leaving of my friends to University as a chance to work on my own path. To get to know myself, and maybe even include the newest member of our circle, Shelby, in my rituals. No more negativity. No more misunderstandings. No more judgement. It seemed perfect.

Now I’m learning that my friends are coming back for a ton of sabbats. Especially the more important ones. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE them. I LOVED the rituals we used to do in the beginning. BUT, I’m scared. I don’t want things to go wrong again. I don’t want to lose out on more ideas. I have a lot of thinking to do about everything. More than any other time, I need the Guidance of the Goddess and God right now. I know they are with me, and they will enhance my intuition so I will know what decision needs to be made. I promised giving the rituals a chance again, and I intend not to go back on my promise. But, if something goes extremely negatively again, I think I’m out.

So much to ponder. I hope everyone has an amazing Samhain, which is in 31 DAYS! YAY! Take advantage of the amazing Autumnal energy, and enhance your Spirituality in anyway you can! Hugs, Love, and Blessings! ❤Fall Pentacle.jpg

Categories: Uncategorized | 3 Comments

Up In the Air

Summer is drawing close to being done, and wow, this summer has been stagnant. With Fall coming up, a VERY magickal time, at least in my life, I hope to draw in a more positive lifestyle. Everything right now, is up in the air. My friend and Mentor, Rachel, is on her way to college in nearly a weeks time, and this will be the first time that I will be on my own, so to speak. I know that the Gods are with me though, and I’m really going to need their help to fashion a stronger spiritual connection. I need that empowerment right now, really bad. Hopefully, Mabon will allow me to Banish the negative things in my life that I need to get rid of, so that on Samhain, I can really work through my shadowself, and Yule can be a time of bringing in all of the positive things I need. I wish you all a great end of your summer! Blessed Be!

Categories: Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Where Have I Been?

Freshman Year: Year of Changes

Of course, blaming my discovery on all the life mash up’s I have been having would be downright foolish. This year my life has taken many different paths. I’ve changed so much. SO much. I’ve allowed a lot of things to happen this year which I shouldn’t have. The first, I allowed myself to grow apart from some of my great friends. I let them slip into the dust, and now I’m finally realizing how distant I have been throughout the year with them. The second thing I’ve allowed to happen, has perhaps, affected my life in the most negative manner. I started hanging out with questionable people, in order to “fit in”. All of my faults are surfacing now, but I’m trying to deal with both of them and many others as they reveal themselves. My life is just starting to surface from the negativity that this year has brought, and hopefully, the light of summer can bathe it in the positvity I’m going to need for some major growth this summer. Especially if I hope that my practice wont be affected by my pagan friends no longer physically being in my area. I need to learn my path for all that it is, for me anyway. Thank you for reading. Blessed Be!

Categories: Uncategorized | 1 Comment

UPDATE!

Hello everyone. I have not been posting recently, as I had been going through an Awful Spiritual Rut. I have found my way once again, so I will actually have something to post about now! I am hoping to start the book “Psychic Tarot” soon, so I will try to post some of the techniques I learn in that book on here so that we may all grow in the Tarot together. I know this is short, but it is just meant to be an Update. Blessed Be!

Categories: Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.

The Patchwork Crow

The musings of a twenty-something poet and witch

Little Green Footsteps

Musings on life as a mum, wife and druid

Labyrinth of Oak

A spiritual journey

Druid Phoenix

Blogging my path...

The Druid's Well

Falling in Love with the Whole World

Cauldron and Brew: A Witch's Blog

Practical Paganism and Sensible Spirituality from a Modern Witch

The Druid's Garden

Spiritual Journeys in Tending the Land, Permaculture, Wildcrafting, and Regenerative Living

Ozark Pagan Mamma

Folk Magic, Druidism, Heathenry, & Pagan Parenting

The Wytch of the North

Laurie Beth Dawe: Cunning woman, writer, artist, apothecary shop keeper, sci fi and horror geek

Drops of Awen

Daily Inspiration to Share

Acorn To Oak- A Hedge Witch's Journey

The Earth speaks to me in whispers in the wind, and in echoes of the waves.

Down the Forest Path

A Journey Through Nature, its Magic and Mystery

The Ditzy Druid

Grey Catsidhe's Den

Grey Wren's Flight

Path of a Solitary Druid - ADF

Parting the Mists

Finding Spirit in the Modern World

A Less Travelled Path

The Scribblings of a Wanderer

Fenland Wyldcraft

A solitary English Witch

Witchcraft and Me

Living as a Young Witch in the 21st Century